Buying a Monkey: Part V (of a 5 part series) - Victory Edition

Fighting distractions so I can type what I want to say. Thanks for all the tips! Every little one helps me get along in life.

The Meaning of Life (as it should have been)

We all choose a life. We choose our history, our parents, our brothers and sisters, our friends, everything. We have the ability to control our lives and decide what we want them to be. This reality is malleable.

Choose a better life for yourself. You don't have to be a slave, make your family better off. Focus on luck. This affords you the time, to concentrate on learning about the 'machine' that you live in.

The illusion of 'reality' is designed for suffering.Everyone has a fear that has been programmed into them. Negativity feeds this reality and keeps it alive. Guilt, paranoia and fear feed it. The guilt of 'doing nothing' for me, feeds it and stops me from focusing. Everyone is being pushed to be slaves of the system. I have heard myself say before, that everything around you is an illusion.

The sure fire side to enter this 'higher' reality is by using drugs. Drugs are not mushrooms or lsd, they are the illusion of the concept that takes us to the other realm. In this other realm, we are able to alter our reality. The problem is to achieve this state, we must overcome the paranioia of taking drugs.

This higher reality does exist, yet it is not allowed to be talked about in the media. The government are trying to stop this happening. We need the whole planet to be on drugs*, so we can all simultaneously all be equal.

*note: 'to be on drugs', nobody stays on drugs, you take them and it allows you in*
Equality creates justice. Inequality creates difference. Difference creates prejudice. Therefore, we should not fear difference. Once you have seen others in the true light, you must realize that you have been all those people before.

We create our reality when we are on the other side. Everyone enters the other side, whether it is through drugs, sleep, or no sleep. We realize that this is the place to command things, to realter the coding, to change our lives. Then we forget. But the shaman is able to go back and forth, bring news and make changes.

The creative is the communicator, who is the shaman. To be able to bring the experience back to reality. My whole life has been very successful this time in giving me the opportunity to (ironically) crack the meaning of life.

Typing it is difficult. I am distracted, pulled away by an unseen force that is attempting to mess this up. I have been successful so far. I am in the most relaxed state now, although I am starting to feel distracted. This zone is further away from reality. Dammit I lost it.

We have to be careful for what kind of life we wish for. All lives come with an amount of pain and suffering. All lives come with struggle. Be humble and choose in between. There is struggle in all of them. Whatever life we choose there will be suffering. Be brave for whatever your life might be.

To be able to change our lives, we must be able to surrender everything that one desires in that life. Desire is the greatest distraction from achieving ones goals, don't worry, everyone goes through the same thing, but it makes it harder for you to change your life. One must realize that everything in reality is fabrication, an illusion, and see beyond the veil, it is easier to choose your life.

Every single experience enables you to complete another part of the puzzle. That's why we need to be on Earth, it's the only way to gain that experience. You can choose your experiences by altering your life. Everytime you are successful, your life gets a chance for being bettered.

What is better? There is no good or evil. There only just 'is'. Everyone is the same, we are all each other, the actions we perform to someone will manifest itself in another lifetime. Therefore we are taught to hurt each other and fear the same consequences.

Let me put it this way, we're in some machine that allows us to do whatever the hell we want, but be prepared to face the consequences. (what you do in this life, will come back to you, that is known as Karma.) Fear and paranoia affect those who have everything, hatred and anger affect those who want to have more; the truth is, that they chose to have that life.

While, I'm typing this, it sounds so dumb when I read it. I fear people will laugh at this, but I'm trying to help the... (there, the laughter again!) This has been the greatest fear along, the paranoia, it destroys me. But I have to keep faith in you (the people) that you can grasp what I am trying to tell you. We must alter our lives for the better, and we can make the world a better place. Everyone is rich, oh how it's easier said than done (oh he can say that because he's got it- you say), yes I do.

It's really hard to get these ideas out, they skip and jump infront of me, and then I get distracted, but I still have to write them out. Got an itchy arm, that is from the life that is pulling me back in. It is a real skill to write when in this zone, that's why I admire how Carlos Castenada did it. I feel sometimes that I have been Carlos Castenada and he has been me. I actually did believe at one time that he was just a bogus shaman, but experience has led me to believe otherwise. Hmmm, you're probably thinking fruitcake alert.

Another part of my easy life, is these grammar courses. The guy makes grammar like mathematics, should it be that way? Shouldn't true expression be much easier than that? Someone is inducing fear. Maybe they want me to be unable to communicate? Trying very hard to make some sense, there's almost a force that prevents me from explaining the experience.



Here is my story (the reader), but it is everyone's:

There is a group of 'familiars' who I see everyday of my life. They are 'familiars' because when you 'meet' them, you would feel as if you had known them forever and longer. They know things that are useful to you and help advance your life.

Fears become a problem when trying to find your 'familiars'. They make you feel scared that you are going insane, or that your life is going down the drain. In that sense, that stop you from doing the things that would otherwise push your life forward.

I must overcome my paranoia to be able to succeed. I decided to open my mind and I am back here again. This confusing place where I have alot of power to alter my reality for good or bad. Things will stop me, we all have this ability, just realize it.

I fear that I could do more. It's hard to control the bad things, I wonder if they just come with the good things. For example, bad follows good. The more good, the more bad. Other people have interests to change the world for the bad, those are the people we should be trying to convert! Didn't want it to sound like a religion.

What is good or bad? They are the goods that everyone wants. Everyone wants good, but to some, their good will be bad. Therefore there is none, they are concepts. Bad is something that you disagree with, good will always be things that you agree with.

How do you create a stable reality? Everyone should want nothing. But it's hard, we all want something, and we hold on to it. That's why we're bound to our 'lives', and why we use drugs to break out of it. We're tied to our possessions and our history. I may have asked for too much this time round, and I will correct it.

Then you have the crowd, who think that I'm totally insane, some people will agree with me who have shared my experience. Others will tell me that, 'I am not in any position to tell them how to do it.', believe me, I am. That is why I am here, and I have the time to do this. I have plenty of time to write. Writing is the way to pass the message, assuming that it is not censored for exposing too much. I have done it! I have done it!

When we ask for things, we should be considerate that it does not hurt another. We should not ask for much. We should accept the lives of others. For whatever reason, a person is the way they are, they chose their life in order to experience something, whether for humility or understanding.

People look at me as if to say, why I did not choose the life of a homeless guy for experience. I have fear, I shouldn't, perhaps it is because I am a coward. A homeless person sacrifices comfortable living, so they can have a life free from paranoia and need to conform. It is better to be well off and doing good deeds for people, rather than be poor and bitter. I have access to writing to tell you how to do it.

When I read this, after I am back to the mundane; the text will make absolutely no sense. The information will make me sound crazy, but I'm not! This is the way I did it, and this is why I am who I am. I did it, I made it happen. Let's make the way a better place. We can all lead by example.

We shouldn't judge a person by the life they lead, or how they look, or act. They are just all acting. Everyone is acting. Everyone chose the role that they're playing in this life because they made that life. The Earth is not real. Certain things hold me back from revealing more; I had to overcome the Ego to write much of this advice.

There is one truth, and that is Love. We should realize that we are each other, everyone has their turn. By loving each other, we learn to love ourself. Unconditional Love is the greatest gift you can give someone.

The choices I have chosen, have made me somewhat eccentric and a little boheme. Those things also drive my paranoia. If I can climb over the hurdle (my fear) that stops me from addressing you my findings. I will certainly read this and find it funny, it's sad because it's supposed to be serious. Language prevents us from describing it. Understanding language well, helps us conquer definition. Once it can be described then it is able to exist.

I think Canada is a great country. We are not afraid to talk, there is more freedom to be able to express ourselves, to not fear the unknown and speak of it. More people will listen to me, if I do not fear them. I have a fear of opening up to people, it makes me cautious and paranoid. These cause me to stay rooted in the boring luxuries of earth and become wasted and unable to further myself. It is no life, but I have the ability to speak to have a voice.

These ideas are fleeting, it is like walking through a field of butterflies with a net that is too small for me to catch them. There are certainly more things that I can learn. I've given myself the opportunity to explore the truth in this way. This is life, this is the true meaning of life. Positive thought will reduce the distractions within your life, so you can meditate on improving your situation.

Suicide is waiting for those who cannot cope with life. Life is life, you cannot control it, it is your choice, you have to accept others for their choices as they will accept yours. You are your own punisher. Your own worst critic.

I may do things quite strangely. I have done this many times before. The lesson is not to judge others less you judge yourself. This creates unity. We accept each other for what we are - the beauty of diversity.

Ego makes this writing, but the paranoia of having Ego can also prevent you from doing things that could be beneficial to others. Therefore, it is best to think that you will strive to make the world a better place.

Writing is somewhat magical. The magicians of the past, were the learned writers and readers. Language transforms the world. My life is in total synchronicity right now. Everyone has their demons and angels, and with the inspiration of the signs and clues, I am now able to turn words into reality.

What is reality? Reality is the language that humans use to communicate with themselves. Alter your reality, and free the time in your life for your pursuits.

Everything I have written sounds crazy, I can see that. If I saw it, I would throw it out. I wish I could show somehow, how I have managed to be where I am.